I’m doing something different and starting with the photos today because there’s a poem at the end and I want it to stand on its own.

Okay truth time: I haven’t like music for a long portion of my life. And I know I just lost your attention, but hear me out. I liked it when it was on the radio, but I didn’t seek out listening to music. And sometimes the sound of music feels really overwhelming and I have to turn it off so that it can be quiet around me.

I think it’s because of how I was raised – we didn’t really have music at home. We didn’t really have TV at home. We had lots of noise because I grew up with 7 siblings, but those weren’t contributing to the overall noise. So sometimes it feels really overwhelming. Like especially when the background music is louder than the lyrics.

But lately I’ve been craving music and it’s fun and I like listening to it. Not for a long time, and I still get overwhelmed. But like soft music is feeling really soothing to my nervous system and 2010s pop country is fun to clean to.

It’s just interesting how things can change over time. I’m interested in how I’ve changed over time. How have you changed?

Anyway, I wrote a poem about it. I’m still scared to share my poetry, so that will just be mine for right now, but one day I’ll share it. There is a poem I’m ready to share, and because you’re here on my blog you get to read it first before the rest of the internet. Thank you for being here. It means a lot.

 

Then

I imagined ways to die

I welcomed them to me like an old friend

Now

I change the batteries in smoke detectors